[Leo is quiet for a long time, all while not looking at Laslow. Because Laslow was right, he doesn't want to hear that.
None of it. It doesn't settle well with him and only makes his head swim sickly. He loved Xander, yes, terribly, but the pedestal Xander had been placed on had also made him feel so far away. A brother in name but moreso a figure to follow, a level to achieve and surpass. Yet Xander spoke highly of Leo? Had he spoken fondly of him when Leo was nothing...? Burdened himself with worrying over Leo? He has always been aware of the fact that he was the one driving the distance between himself and Xander but he had always thought Xander had just been Okay with it. The realization that perhaps their perception of each other had been completely different hits him hard.
And. He wishes Xander were here to be the one to tell him this. That hits him harder.
Leo taps the documents against his desk to straighten them out and after one more pensive moment, lays them back flat on the desk.] Then I will be retiring for the night. You're dismissed.
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None of it. It doesn't settle well with him and only makes his head swim sickly. He loved Xander, yes, terribly, but the pedestal Xander had been placed on had also made him feel so far away. A brother in name but moreso a figure to follow, a level to achieve and surpass. Yet Xander spoke highly of Leo? Had he spoken fondly of him when Leo was nothing...? Burdened himself with worrying over Leo? He has always been aware of the fact that he was the one driving the distance between himself and Xander but he had always thought Xander had just been Okay with it. The realization that perhaps their perception of each other had been completely different hits him hard.
And. He wishes Xander were here to be the one to tell him this. That hits him harder.
Leo taps the documents against his desk to straighten them out and after one more pensive moment, lays them back flat on the desk.] Then I will be retiring for the night. You're dismissed.
[He still can't look at him.]