[Mitsunari is not the best at feelings. He's always felt things very strongly - too strongly - but he doesn't know what to do about those emotions that just want to pour out of him constantly. Ever since he learned that shouting his feelings at the top of his lungs was not the best way to go about them, he's never learned how to appropriately express himself.
So when the beginnings of romantic feelings for his roommate Yukimura start crawling under his skin, Mitsunari is thrown into turmoil. He wants to say something, but not only does he not even begin to know How, logically he shouldn't because there are many possible consequences to deal with. But also, it doesn't feel right not saying anything either. It feels like he's lying to Yukimura every day now, and both his own honor and loyalty to the other boy is weary with it.
It burns inside him like acid, but he just... can't risk his friendship with Yukimura. Mitsunari hadn't expected to make any new friends in college: he was happy with his small social circle that had carried over from high school. So to be suddenly gifted with this friendship (dare he say..... bond.... ) that has proven over time to be his most important and most cherished, and suddenly throw it away because of his treacherous heart? It's out of the question. He will never meet anyone quite like Yukimura again. He's sure of this.
Keeping a lid on his feelings gets progressively harder as times passes though, so he's spent a lot of that recent time with Motochika. Motochika, another cherished friend, proves to be a good distraction from his thoughts and often times they'll partake in some physical activity that leaves Mitsunari exhausted and mind blank once he returns to Yukimura and their shared dorm. (A wistful 'I want to kiss him' may sneak in whenever Yukimura is looking particularly precious, but those are easy to swat away. No way. No Way. He would Never.)
Such is the case as of now. After classes, Mitsunari had met up with Motochika and when he'd gotten back to their room, Yukimura hadn't been there so he'd jumped into the shower. Yukimura being absent is the only reason Mitsunari comes back into the room shirtless, rubbing his hair dry with his towel.
If he'd known Yukimura had returned... well, he'd definitely be more dressed. But he's not, and the sight of his roommate startles him. His heart jumpstarts into his throat and suddenly he's feeling extra exposed even when Yukimura's not looking at him.
There's no way Yukimura didn't hear him enter the room, but he's still going to hurry to his side and busy himself with finding clothes. They can avoid acknowledging this, this is FINE.]
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So when the beginnings of romantic feelings for his roommate Yukimura start crawling under his skin, Mitsunari is thrown into turmoil. He wants to say something, but not only does he not even begin to know How, logically he shouldn't because there are many possible consequences to deal with. But also, it doesn't feel right not saying anything either. It feels like he's lying to Yukimura every day now, and both his own honor and loyalty to the other boy is weary with it.
It burns inside him like acid, but he just... can't risk his friendship with Yukimura. Mitsunari hadn't expected to make any new friends in college: he was happy with his small social circle that had carried over from high school. So to be suddenly gifted with this friendship (dare he say..... bond.... ) that has proven over time to be his most important and most cherished, and suddenly throw it away because of his treacherous heart? It's out of the question. He will never meet anyone quite like Yukimura again. He's sure of this.
Keeping a lid on his feelings gets progressively harder as times passes though, so he's spent a lot of that recent time with Motochika. Motochika, another cherished friend, proves to be a good distraction from his thoughts and often times they'll partake in some physical activity that leaves Mitsunari exhausted and mind blank once he returns to Yukimura and their shared dorm. (A wistful 'I want to kiss him' may sneak in whenever Yukimura is looking particularly precious, but those are easy to swat away. No way. No Way. He would Never.)
Such is the case as of now. After classes, Mitsunari had met up with Motochika and when he'd gotten back to their room, Yukimura hadn't been there so he'd jumped into the shower. Yukimura being absent is the only reason Mitsunari comes back into the room shirtless, rubbing his hair dry with his towel.
If he'd known Yukimura had returned... well, he'd definitely be more dressed. But he's not, and the sight of his roommate startles him. His heart jumpstarts into his throat and suddenly he's feeling extra exposed even when Yukimura's not looking at him.
There's no way Yukimura didn't hear him enter the room, but he's still going to hurry to his side and busy himself with finding clothes. They can avoid acknowledging this, this is FINE.]