Morisuke Yaku | 夜久衛輔 (![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
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volkamenia2015-05-18 03:06 pm
libemom) wrote in volkamenia2015-05-18 03:06 pm
twenty-two years young [yaku/sugawara, single dad au]
[ There's a feeling of exhaustion that's long since settled deep in Yaku's bones and leaves him wondering just how he could have aged so much in the years since graduating from Nekoma High School. Sometimes it feels like just yesterday he was playing as their volleyball team's libero, and the most he had to worry about was how to best keep the underclassmen (and Kuroo, sometimes) in line - and sometimes he finds himself wishing that it were just yesterday, that his life since graduation was just one giant stress dream and he'd wake up to a phone call from a teammate telling him to get to the gym, he's thirty minutes late and counting. But he's here, not there, with a little girl tugging softly on his hand and leading him toward a building that, despite its kid-friendliness, leaves little knots forming in the pit of his stomach.
After all, who would expect to enroll in a university to get a degree and come out a parent of a young child? Maybe it'd be less shocking for someone less responsible than he was (is, continues to try to be), but this is Yaku's life since then - a life he's kept secret from most (Kuroo and Kai were reluctantly let in, and even that he regrets), under control, for the sake of his family, his now ex-wife, himself.
(not that there was anyone to blame but himself for everything that happened during those four years - he should've been more careful, should've been a better boyfriend - a better husband, for the little amount of time that lasted - should've should've should've
should've done so much more
could he have saved the sinking ship that was his relationship if he could've been more than he was?)
He's done his best to raise Kaori on his own - his parents frowned upon him the moment he and his then fiancee bowed before them, announcing their engagement, and he's far too proud to ask for help otherwise - but with work getting busier and Kaori getting more anxious to meet people her age, well. All-day daycare's one of the few options he has, and the most appealing.
He squeezes Kaori's hand gently - a gesture he tells himself is for her benefit, but is actually for his own, for a father not eager to let his child leave the nest. ] Here we go... [ Yaku slides the door open and steps inside the daycare. ]
Hello?
After all, who would expect to enroll in a university to get a degree and come out a parent of a young child? Maybe it'd be less shocking for someone less responsible than he was (is, continues to try to be), but this is Yaku's life since then - a life he's kept secret from most (Kuroo and Kai were reluctantly let in, and even that he regrets), under control, for the sake of his family, his now ex-wife, himself.
(not that there was anyone to blame but himself for everything that happened during those four years - he should've been more careful, should've been a better boyfriend - a better husband, for the little amount of time that lasted - should've should've should've
should've done so much more
could he have saved the sinking ship that was his relationship if he could've been more than he was?)
He's done his best to raise Kaori on his own - his parents frowned upon him the moment he and his then fiancee bowed before them, announcing their engagement, and he's far too proud to ask for help otherwise - but with work getting busier and Kaori getting more anxious to meet people her age, well. All-day daycare's one of the few options he has, and the most appealing.
He squeezes Kaori's hand gently - a gesture he tells himself is for her benefit, but is actually for his own, for a father not eager to let his child leave the nest. ] Here we go... [ Yaku slides the door open and steps inside the daycare. ]
Hello?
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[He looks back up at Yaku, slow to get back up because he has every intention of offering Kaori his hand to hold and introduce her into the group once he's finished speaking with Yaku.]
Um, I don't want to keep you; you're probably on your way to work. But, if you'd like, could we exchange information? [After meeting again after such a long time, Suga didn't want to lose this opportunity to keep in contact. But that little bit of nervousness was still biting at him.] Or, wait, will you be picking up Kaori-chan too? We can do it then. If you want.
[He's being way too forward and he knows it but yikes.]
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(He can only hope that Suga's still as kind-hearted as he remembers him being - that everything Yaku's become since high school for whatever reason push him away.) ]
I don't mind. Here- [ He pulls out his phone, ready to ask "phone number or email address", but then he notices the time and oh no, oh no, shoot how did time pass like this. ] I, ah- I'm sorry, I'm running late.
[ Truthfully, he doesn't want to leave yet - he's reluctant to leave Kaori, reluctant to end this conversation on such an odd note - but it'd also be awkward to stay around for much longer. At the mention of "late" Kaori's hold on his sleeve finally (also reluctantly) loosens and he kneels down too to kiss her hair. ]
You be good to Sugawara-sensei, okay? [ Then, to Suga: ] I'm sorry, I lost track of time. I'll be back later to pick her up, though. If that's alright.
[ ... that didn't come out as he intended, but. rolling with it. ]