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What are you talking about? You "of all people"? [Caspar frowns, though not at all upset.
The way he sees it, he did essentially the same thing as Linhardt. He gets to spend the rest of the days with the person he loves - just without the marriage bit because he's never cared for or had to worry about that obligation.] I asked you because I don't want to be with anyone else. I thought that was obvious.
The way he sees it, he did essentially the same thing as Linhardt. He gets to spend the rest of the days with the person he loves - just without the marriage bit because he's never cared for or had to worry about that obligation.] I asked you because I don't want to be with anyone else. I thought that was obvious.
[ Around twenty minutes after Mercedes leaves the infirmary, Felix's eyes blink open. A look of confusion momentarily flickers across his face - he's in a bed? but this isn't his room? - before the haze of sleep fades from his mind and he remembers why he's here.
His body still feels sluggish and heavy, but he forces himself up to a seated position - and that's the moment he looks over and sees Dimitri, making his way over to his side to help. (he doesn't protest - the assistance is appreciated.) ] ... I thought you wouldn't have stuck around. [ Truthfully, a part of him expected Dimitri to have left him alone in shame, claiming that he had no right to be around Felix, or some bullshit like that. ]
His body still feels sluggish and heavy, but he forces himself up to a seated position - and that's the moment he looks over and sees Dimitri, making his way over to his side to help. (he doesn't protest - the assistance is appreciated.) ] ... I thought you wouldn't have stuck around. [ Truthfully, a part of him expected Dimitri to have left him alone in shame, claiming that he had no right to be around Felix, or some bullshit like that. ]
[ (him "of all people" because caspar has many other friends. not many that would throw their futures into the wind like this, yes, but his point still stands.) ]
I know that you care a lot about me. I see that every day we're together. [ Under the blanket, he wrings his hands together. ] But I feel like I haven't been honest with you. [ His smile wavers. ] I kept things from you because I didn't want to make you uncomfortable, but I can't anymore. I want to tell you the truth, even if you hate me for it.
[ He takes a little breath. Here goes nothing. ] When I say I want to stay with you, I mean as more than just friends. I... I love you, Caspar. And I want us to be together - romantically.
I know that you care a lot about me. I see that every day we're together. [ Under the blanket, he wrings his hands together. ] But I feel like I haven't been honest with you. [ His smile wavers. ] I kept things from you because I didn't want to make you uncomfortable, but I can't anymore. I want to tell you the truth, even if you hate me for it.
[ He takes a little breath. Here goes nothing. ] When I say I want to stay with you, I mean as more than just friends. I... I love you, Caspar. And I want us to be together - romantically.
I couldn't leave you like this. [Dimitri answers easily. Of course he feels ashamed of what he's done, but what Felix said is still fresh on his mind. If he'd have left Felix like nothing had happened at all, it would be the same as running away. And besides, he cares about Felix.] I have to take responsibility.
[Once Felix is upright and comfortable in bed, Dimitri offers Mercedes concoction to him.] Drink this. Mercedes said this would help with the blood loss.
[Once Felix is upright and comfortable in bed, Dimitri offers Mercedes concoction to him.] Drink this. Mercedes said this would help with the blood loss.
[As Ashe talks, Caspar begins to feel uncharacteristically scared. He’s not the best at reading the mood, but even he can tell this is going south. This isn’t good – Ashe is gonna leave him, isn’t he? Oh geez, what had he done – they didn’t always see eye to eye on things, but he didn’t think they had disagreed on something so grievous that warranted a ........
a confession?
Wait, what.
Caspar tilts his head, almost comically in confusion.] Aren’t we already together..... romantically?
a confession?
Wait, what.
Caspar tilts his head, almost comically in confusion.] Aren’t we already together..... romantically?
Edited 2019-11-01 17:16 (UTC)
[ Felix accepts the mug with a small nod. ] Thanks. [ It's both to Dimitri (for staying) and Mercedes (for everything else), even though only one of them is in the room.
He takes a slow sip of the concoction, and immediately wrinkles his nose. ] Ugh. [ He doesn't normally mind bitter tastes, but even this is a bit much for him. The fact that it's lukewarm now doesn't help matters, either.
But he still takes another drink (he trusts mercedes with his life and, more importantly, doesn't want to get on her bad side by ignoring her instructions) before bluntly addressing the elephant in the room. ]
Is this going to happen again? [ "This" meaning a lot of things: Dimitri's complete and total loss of control, drinking his blood... and him speaking through his actions, like he'd asked him to do to atone for his father's death. ]
He takes a slow sip of the concoction, and immediately wrinkles his nose. ] Ugh. [ He doesn't normally mind bitter tastes, but even this is a bit much for him. The fact that it's lukewarm now doesn't help matters, either.
But he still takes another drink (he trusts mercedes with his life and, more importantly, doesn't want to get on her bad side by ignoring her instructions) before bluntly addressing the elephant in the room. ]
Is this going to happen again? [ "This" meaning a lot of things: Dimitri's complete and total loss of control, drinking his blood... and him speaking through his actions, like he'd asked him to do to atone for his father's death. ]
I'm not. [ So far, he's only promised a dance to Mercedes and Annette, because Annette wouldn't let him say no and Mercedes was in earshot when Felix finally caved and agreed. ] But that doesn't stop them from asking for a dance. Or for me to accompany them to the Goddess Tower.
[ (he imagines when he was younger, softer, more able to express his emotions, he might've enjoyed the mystique of the goddess tower. he might've even asked dimitri to accompany him so they could wish to stay together, for the rest of their long and happy lives. but there's no wish now that the goddess can grant for him - nothing that he can't grasp at with his own two hands, anyway.) ]
They don't get that I want nothing to do with this.
[ (he imagines when he was younger, softer, more able to express his emotions, he might've enjoyed the mystique of the goddess tower. he might've even asked dimitri to accompany him so they could wish to stay together, for the rest of their long and happy lives. but there's no wish now that the goddess can grant for him - nothing that he can't grasp at with his own two hands, anyway.) ]
They don't get that I want nothing to do with this.
[That is a question Dimitri can’t answer as easily. It’s a loaded question that can’t be solved with a yes or no. Because, no, doesn’t want to lose control again but that means that ,yes, he will have to drink blood again. No, he doesn’t want to drink Felix’s – or anyone’s - blood again, but if he doesn’t, he will lose control again.
Dimitri squirms and backs himself up against the wall, away from Felix.] I can’t – I don’t know how to answer that.
I need to drink blood. [And what more can he say than that.]
Dimitri squirms and backs himself up against the wall, away from Felix.] I can’t – I don’t know how to answer that.
I need to drink blood. [And what more can he say than that.]
[ Ashe expects rejection - a flurry of movement to pull away from him, and some loud words - so to hear that burst of laughter and effortless "I love you" in return has him turning beet red in record time.
He chokes out ] You knew? [ then proceeds to try and hide his face in his blanket. Did he really hear him right? He loves him too? And he thought they were already together? ] But you never told me...!
[ Ashe is arguably one of the most skilled archers in all of Fodlan, a war hero, and an aspiration for many. But right now all he can do is whine in the face of his confession not going as planned. ] I didn't know you felt the same...
He chokes out ] You knew? [ then proceeds to try and hide his face in his blanket. Did he really hear him right? He loves him too? And he thought they were already together? ] But you never told me...!
[ Ashe is arguably one of the most skilled archers in all of Fodlan, a war hero, and an aspiration for many. But right now all he can do is whine in the face of his confession not going as planned. ] I didn't know you felt the same...
[ He doesn't stop Dimitri from pulling away - he simply continues to drink from his mug and watch him from his place on the bed. ]
Are you always that hungry? [ "If you let me go, I will hurt them." How true are those words? ]
Are you always that hungry? [ "If you let me go, I will hurt them." How true are those words? ]
Edited 2019-11-01 20:15 (UTC)
[ ... okay, now he regrets letting Dimitri step away, because he can't slap him upside the head for this.
Felix pinches the bridge of his nose and sighs very, very heavily. ] You starve yourself for weeks, and you're surprised you lost control? [ Oh my god, the king's an idiot. ] How often did you drink before?
Felix pinches the bridge of his nose and sighs very, very heavily. ] You starve yourself for weeks, and you're surprised you lost control? [ Oh my god, the king's an idiot. ] How often did you drink before?
[Okay, when he puts it that way of course Dimitri sounds like an idiot.]
Once a week... sometimes more. But I was feeding indiscriminately. Bandits, soldiers, innocents caught in the crossfire – whoever I could get my hands on when the mood struck! I don’t want to do that anymore.
Once a week... sometimes more. But I was feeding indiscriminately. Bandits, soldiers, innocents caught in the crossfire – whoever I could get my hands on when the mood struck! I don’t want to do that anymore.
Then don't. [ It's that simple. He'll even spell it out for him, in no uncertain terms. ]
Drink my blood instead.
Drink my blood instead.
I'm only here because you waited too long. [ And the fact that he more or less cut his hand open, but details.
He sets down his mug, now drained of its gross remedy, and stares down at his hand. ] Look, I get you don't want to hurt anyone. But if you lose control of yourself again you'll only be a danger to yourself, and the rest of us.
Besides, I already know who you are. [ "A beast, craving blood."
His hand curls, slow and careful. ] If you don't want to get anyone else involved, I'm your only option.
He sets down his mug, now drained of its gross remedy, and stares down at his hand. ] Look, I get you don't want to hurt anyone. But if you lose control of yourself again you'll only be a danger to yourself, and the rest of us.
Besides, I already know who you are. [ "A beast, craving blood."
His hand curls, slow and careful. ] If you don't want to get anyone else involved, I'm your only option.
[Dimitri hates that he's right. Getting anyone involved doesn't feel good. Especially Felix. But, he's right.
Felix has been the only one to see who he is from the beginning. He's the only one who knows. Will ever know, maybe. Felix is the only one who will tell him 'no.' Who is willing to contest him in order to aide him. To tame him.
As ever, Felix is the only one he can trust.]
Right as always. [He turns his gaze to the floor, shaking his head.] Then please... allow me to rely on you.
Felix has been the only one to see who he is from the beginning. He's the only one who knows. Will ever know, maybe. Felix is the only one who will tell him 'no.' Who is willing to contest him in order to aide him. To tame him.
As ever, Felix is the only one he can trust.]
Right as always. [He turns his gaze to the floor, shaking his head.] Then please... allow me to rely on you.
[Something hot and uncomfortable settles in Dimitri's stomach when he thinks about Felix going to the Goddess Tower with anyone. It's jealous and mean. Dimitri chews the inside of his cheek.]
Then I suppose you're best off doing just this; hiding away until it's over.
Then I suppose you're best off doing just this; hiding away until it's over.
[ Despite Dimitri's reservations (and his own - he's still readjusting to dimitri's humanity, his softer sides, that little smile of his that he adored as a kid) he's... strangely happy. He doesn't smile, but there's a bit of warmth in his expression that wasn't previously there. ]
It's about time you relied on us. [ mister I Want To Take Down The Adrestian Empire By Myself And Most Definitely Die Trying ]
It's about time you relied on us. [ mister I Want To Take Down The Adrestian Empire By Myself And Most Definitely Die Trying ]
[Dimitri doesn't have anything to say to that. He relied on them - Felix - plenty as kids. Maybe not in the way Felix wanted, but he tried and Felix never took his hand. And now Dimitri doesn't want to rely on them (him) but he has no choice.]
Ah. [Eventually, Dimitri perks as if he's remembered something.] I have one condition.
Ah. [Eventually, Dimitri perks as if he's remembered something.] I have one condition.
[ Felix blinks, honest to goddess caught a bit off-guard by his sudden addition. ]
Why? I'm not gaining anything from this. [ he's doing this for you?????? ]
Why? I'm not gaining anything from this. [ he's doing this for you?????? ]
[ ... yeah, that's not the best way to phrase it. But it's definitely the most Dimitri way of doing so.
He sighs, and looks at a very interesting spot on the wall off to the side. ] Fine. Just don't go overboard. [ He can't argue too much when Dimitri will be, in a sense, injuring him every time he feeds. ]
He sighs, and looks at a very interesting spot on the wall off to the side. ] Fine. Just don't go overboard. [ He can't argue too much when Dimitri will be, in a sense, injuring him every time he feeds. ]
[Oh, Felix is, Felix really is so very cute. And he's so coy and shy about it - it's maddening.
Dimitri is sure to get his revenge the moment Felix enters his chambers. When the doors are closed, leaving them in the privacy of their own world, he sweeps into Felix's space and pulls him into his arms all over again.
He kisses his forehead.
Like a tease.] You returned quickly. Eager, were you?
Dimitri is sure to get his revenge the moment Felix enters his chambers. When the doors are closed, leaving them in the privacy of their own world, he sweeps into Felix's space and pulls him into his arms all over again.
He kisses his forehead.
Like a tease.] You returned quickly. Eager, were you?
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