[ Felix has never been one for tact - but he hears the worry in Dimitri's voice and he wishes he was.
He doesn't even know where to begin, so he just. Starts. ] I wasn't there because I left you. [ He reaches over to take Dimitri's hand. (it's as much for dimitri as it is for himself.) ] Do you remember that mercenary that taught the Golden Deer house? I wanted to learn their techniques, so I transferred to their class after the Battle of the Eagle and Lion.
Everything went south after that. Remire Village, the incident at the abandoned chapel... and then, Edelgard declared war. [ Each word, he says slowly, watching Dimitri's expression. ] After Garreg Mach fell, Cornelia declared you dead. So I tried to go on with my life. [ Like what he did with Glenn. ] But you weren't dead. I saw you one last time, at Gronder Field.
[ He presses his other hand to his forehead. ] I still can't forget the look in your eye. You didn't even look at me - you only saw an obstacle in your path to Edelgard.
And then you died. [ A lump forms in his throat. ] I wasn't so foolish as to think I could have saved you from your fate. [ a lie. ] ... But I still wondered if I could've done something.
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He doesn't even know where to begin, so he just. Starts. ] I wasn't there because I left you. [ He reaches over to take Dimitri's hand. (it's as much for dimitri as it is for himself.) ] Do you remember that mercenary that taught the Golden Deer house? I wanted to learn their techniques, so I transferred to their class after the Battle of the Eagle and Lion.
Everything went south after that. Remire Village, the incident at the abandoned chapel... and then, Edelgard declared war. [ Each word, he says slowly, watching Dimitri's expression. ] After Garreg Mach fell, Cornelia declared you dead. So I tried to go on with my life. [ Like what he did with Glenn. ] But you weren't dead. I saw you one last time, at Gronder Field.
[ He presses his other hand to his forehead. ] I still can't forget the look in your eye. You didn't even look at me - you only saw an obstacle in your path to Edelgard.
And then you died. [ A lump forms in his throat. ] I wasn't so foolish as to think I could have saved you from your fate. [ a lie. ] ... But I still wondered if I could've done something.
That's why I owe you.