I see. [Dimitri's voice is small. It's a lot to take in. Of course it is. It hurts knowing now that Felix's absence was due to him leaving. At the same time, though, Dimitri prefers the truth as it is. Felix leaving his side was for the better; Dimitri would have only led him to his death if he'd stayed. He would have died just like Dimitri had assumed all this time.
After all, Dimitri remembers bits and pieces of Grondor Field and Felix is not one of those pieces. He must have really looked right through him. At least he hadn't killed him himself. At least. His hand trembles in Felix's.]
But Felix, I - I want you to want to be here with me. [He blinks quickly, blinking back the wetness that seems to have come from no where.] If you're here with me, I want it to be because you want to not because you owe me.
[ Felix's hand tightens around Dimitri's, to try and quell the tremors. ]
I know we aren't. And I wouldn't be here if I didn't want to be. [ But for all he talked about not letting the dead dictate the lives of the living, he's been following Dimitri's ghost for a long time. ]
But I've seen you at your worst. I wasn't there for you when you needed me. [ Dedue, Ingrid, even Sylvain stayed. But not him. He- he-- ] I'm not going to repeat that mistake.
[ Without thought or hesitation, Felix gently tugs Dimitri down, cradling his head against his shoulder. ]
You won't. [ He blinks back his own tears as he noses into his hair.
(at a later date, he might find it funny how much their roles reversed - how even when they first met in this life, dimitri comforted him, and now it was his turn after being the one that hurt his heart in the first place.) ] Like we've been saying - we're not who we were. You're not... [ the boar.
He stops himself there. Takes a breath. ] I'll say it again - I'm not leaving you alone. This time, I'm here for you. [ And that's that. ]
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After all, Dimitri remembers bits and pieces of Grondor Field and Felix is not one of those pieces. He must have really looked right through him. At least he hadn't killed him himself. At least. His hand trembles in Felix's.]
But Felix, I - I want you to want to be here with me. [He blinks quickly, blinking back the wetness that seems to have come from no where.] If you're here with me, I want it to be because you want to not because you owe me.
We are not the same as we were.
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I know we aren't. And I wouldn't be here if I didn't want to be. [ But for all he talked about not letting the dead dictate the lives of the living, he's been following Dimitri's ghost for a long time. ]
But I've seen you at your worst. I wasn't there for you when you needed me. [ Dedue, Ingrid, even Sylvain stayed. But not him. He- he-- ] I'm not going to repeat that mistake.
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I hope to never give you cause to.
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You won't. [ He blinks back his own tears as he noses into his hair.
(at a later date, he might find it funny how much their roles reversed - how even when they first met in this life, dimitri comforted him, and now it was his turn after being the one that hurt his heart in the first place.) ] Like we've been saying - we're not who we were. You're not... [ the boar.
He stops himself there. Takes a breath. ] I'll say it again - I'm not leaving you alone. This time, I'm here for you. [ And that's that. ]