[ No, that's not all he has to say. "I love you, too." "I've been in love with you for a while now." "Thank you. For loving me." But he opens his mouth to say any of those things and his throat tightens. His mind goes blank and all that echoes in its emptiness is that Leo's making a mistake, confessing to him, wanting to be with him. ]
I... [ His voice cracks pathetically. He feels pathetic. ] But why me? I'm not- [ good enough for you. ] You could do better than me, Leo.
[Leo bristles.] I can decide that for myself, thank you. I think you're amazing. I - [He wants to hear it, but at the same time it doesn't feel right trying to coax a confession out of Takumi. Leo knows he has anxiety and incredibly low self-worth; he may have to help him think better of himself before Takumi's ready to jump into anything.]
If that's really all you have to say, though, then I suppose that's it.
[ Honestly... yeah, his self-esteem leaves much to be desired. But Takumi hears that distance in Leo's voice and his heart tightens in his chest. All this time, Leo's been so patient with him - but surely he has his limits. Surely, him not giving him a confirmation of his feelings is a limit.
Before Leo can draw away, Takumi pulls his hands out from underneath his, and switches their positions. He squeezes his hands a little too tight and chokes out. ] - I love you! I really do!
I just... [ He cuts himself off. Shakes his head. No, no justs. No brushing off his feelings anymore. That isn't fair to Leo. ] It. Still feels like a dream, I guess.
[ Takumi's had dreams before where Leo's kissed him. But he's never been able to feel anything when he did - and either the dream would take a weird turn from there, or he'd wake up feeling guilty for thinking about one of his best friends in that way.
The warmth of Leo's breath over his lips is already convincing enough. But still he nods slightly, taking care to not knock his nose against his. ] ... Yes. [ He lets out a shaky breath of his own, his grip shifting so he can lace his fingers with Leo's. ] You may.
[Is this how Leo expected their first kiss to go? Absolutely not. But he'd rather this than something awkward and ingenuine.
He closes the small distance between their lips in a kiss.
Unsurprisingly, there are no fireworks, no revelations. But his heart does pick up, and he feels warm. He feels more at home and comfortable in this single moment than he has in a very long time. He feels right. It makes pulling away all the harder. Not that he pulls away very far: when he speaks next, Leo's lips still brush over Takumi's with each word.]
[ Leo draws back and Takumi finds himself already missing the warmth of his lips.
He knows he's awake, that everything he feels (their laced fingers, leo's lips brushing over his, the seat of the swing underneath him) is real - but he still lets his eyes flutter shut. ]
... Maybe. [ Leo will feel his lips curl up into a smile. ] You should kiss me again, though. Just so I'm sure.
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I... [ His voice cracks pathetically. He feels pathetic. ] But why me? I'm not- [ good enough for you. ] You could do better than me, Leo.
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If that's really all you have to say, though, then I suppose that's it.
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Before Leo can draw away, Takumi pulls his hands out from underneath his, and switches their positions. He squeezes his hands a little too tight and chokes out. ] - I love you! I really do!
I just... [ He cuts himself off. Shakes his head. No, no justs. No brushing off his feelings anymore. That isn't fair to Leo. ] It. Still feels like a dream, I guess.
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I can prove to you, very easily, that this is not a dream.
[He leans in, almost nose to nose with Takumi, his intentions very clear.] May I?
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The warmth of Leo's breath over his lips is already convincing enough. But still he nods slightly, taking care to not knock his nose against his. ] ... Yes. [ He lets out a shaky breath of his own, his grip shifting so he can lace his fingers with Leo's. ] You may.
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He closes the small distance between their lips in a kiss.
Unsurprisingly, there are no fireworks, no revelations. But his heart does pick up, and he feels warm. He feels more at home and comfortable in this single moment than he has in a very long time. He feels right. It makes pulling away all the harder. Not that he pulls away very far: when he speaks next, Leo's lips still brush over Takumi's with each word.]
Well? Convinced?
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He knows he's awake, that everything he feels (their laced fingers, leo's lips brushing over his, the seat of the swing underneath him) is real - but he still lets his eyes flutter shut. ]
... Maybe. [ Leo will feel his lips curl up into a smile. ] You should kiss me again, though. Just so I'm sure.